Isn't it funny sometimes how we are so quick to give up on ourselves, only to find that if we'd just give it an extra little "umph!!" things go just the way we want them to?
In learning to design and create this wonderful place of useless (and often annoying for many)information, I seem to run across a whole gamut of difficulties and problems. Keep in mind, I have never had one bit of "formal" training for any of this, and as of today... I have spent maybe a total of a hundred hours or so dedicated to the actual learning of what I've done so far. I just search, ask questions, and view peoples stuff from all over. Yeah, I've borrowed/purchased a few things here and there (I.E. graphics from "
DigitalBlasphemy"), but for the most part, this thing is a true conglomeration of my skills
{the preceding shameless self promotion is aimed at attracting the attention of someone who may be affiliated with or in contact with a person holding a position that could offer me a JOB!!... Please god... I need food/shelter/a life}. I am quite proud of it and hope that as time moves on, you will find reason to come and visit here often.
OK... back on topic... the reason for this post... Well, it's more of an announcement really; an attempt to declare, that though I had great difficulty (or so I thought) of making things come together for this site... Especially this whole "Journal" section, you can see... perseverance pays off. How many times I was tempted to throw in the towel (too many to count) and how many people did I ask "do you know how to?" (more than you want to know - most all of whom said... "Ummmm...Uhhhh, no"); and all for what... so I could sit here one fine rainy day... looking over the code for what I swore would be the "LAST" time (said that many times before too)... and there it was... a little mistake in capitalization. OHHH... the HUMANITY!!! Have you ever experienced, JOY, ANGER, SELF-LOVE, SELF-HATE, and about a million-and-one other emotions all at the same time? It's absolutely euphoric... let me tell you.
So... as the title says... Never say never, as in I'll never get this right... it'll never work, etc. Everyday I find just one more reason to keep pushing. Yes, it is frustrating when we don't get our way the first time we try at something... but honestly... the feeling of achieving something you've truly had to "work" for... aughhh, it's priceless. I complain all the time because I'm used to having things come naturally to me most of the time... but it's things like this page, trying to find a perfect balance in life, trying to read more than 100 pages of anything all the way through without getting sleepy, trying to be a perfect person and trying to find that perfect someone, that drive me to absolute distraction. But you know... I keep trying... I keep looking for the answer... and I try to remember that "the only things that are "impossible" are the things 'you' don't imagine". I have conquered this page, but there are still other pages left to be conquered... and all those other things listed above? ... yeah, I'm confident that sooner or later... I'll find the answers to all of them. But for now... HELL YEAH MAN!! I GOT THIS PAGE UP!! LOL... and why? Cause I wouldn't give up!! Ohhh, I had a few people tell me it wouldn't happen, and I had a few who thought it was absolutely ridiculous that I should even want to try... but you know... they don't matter to me now... and I laugh in their general direction... no... I laugh directly at them... It's up!!! And I feel euphoric... and well... I'm going to go now. I would love it if someone would attempt to use the links I've provided for commenting, etc. Hey you... yeah you.... comment... tell me what to fix, etc.
